Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in xo_sognatore's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
11:46 am	no school for me today.. Well today i had real bad cramps, so i stayed home. Life has been hard lately...realizing the dreams my father has for me and how he has no faith in what i want. it really hurts when family doesnt support you, or when they dont believe in you. Im real sick of people acting like their problems are the worst things in the world..it seems like everyone i talk to thinks they have the worst problems when in reality it can be a lot worse. Ive gone through many problems, but what gets me through them is that i know they arent the biggest problems in the world. like some of my friends complain about their parents getting divorced and act like its the end of the world...well think about me who had a father who had leukemia who almost died. it just really pisses me off...and im thankful hes cured but im still so hurt that he had it...i know hes cured but it really messes me up inside. the feeling that you almost lost your father, not from a divorce, but from death isnt a feeling that goes away..it seriously stays with you every single day. your happy things are okay, but now you live life in fear that the disease will come back...it never leaves you. but it could be worse...and i hate how people act like everyones life should be built around their problems...it gets on my fucking nerves. i mean yea some of my friends have problems and i listen to them but when you act like nothing else matters it pisses me off...you could be starving in africa..be 16 years old and weigh 70 lbs...wear the same clothes every single day and be suffering from aids. thats a lot worse. anyways...thats all. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Love Is (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
10:12 pm	such a depressing week.. This week seemed like it was never ending. Im really stressed right now about the SATs...i really would like to get a decent score on them so im able to go to purchase. on top of that, there was another death of another teenager that i knew. Jessica and i were talked and this year was just an awful year for like kids at my school, or who went to our school or that we knew who died. First, matt dies, then tony, and now eric. its just all weird...ive gone to school with eric since i was in elementary school at maple and he lives like right up the street and like 2 blocks over...today jessica and i were just talking about him and how like we just remember him from elementary and whirlpool baseball and from when everyone when we were younger playing street hockey and it is just so sad and it makes you wish he didnt end his life like that...i dont know i dont think anyone should look at him differently even though he made a few mistakes.... i dont know..this week was just a weird one...on another note, i had a fun day at work. i left at 7 and i hung out with anthony and then i went and got him mcdonalds and came back and talked some more..lauren started working with me which is fun i guess...well thats all Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Poster Girl (Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
4:27 pm	its a weird world, dont ya know it Well i havent updated in a long time. ive been sick...i didnt go to school today either and i had a project due and a math assignment worth 4 times on our grade. but yea im really bored. nothing too much has been going on...ive been working a lot at my grandpa's restaurant and what not. but yeah...i dont feel like writing anymore bye lol for my mood i just put in "Sick" and the little teddy bear is throwing up...how lovely lol. Current Mood: sick Current Music: Memories (Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
11:05 am	long time noo update Well i havent updated in a really long time. I didnt go to school, ive been sick and today im just completely out of, maybe because i just took like 5 pain killers lol... so yea no school for me. Im trying my best to prepare for the SAT because i need at least a 900 to get into Purchase, im so nervous blahhh. Well i work tonight at the grandpa's restaurant, i have missed it so much...really lol. im quitting at aj's and now Jimmie wants a job at my grandpa's restaurant...i dont know if i want him working there but a part of me does, so i told him to go get an application and we will see. but yea thats all. i wish people would realize they are full of shit and that i dont want to talk to 'em :o) Current Mood: sick Current Music: myself singing lol (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
10:02 pm	*shout* throw my hands up and *shout* Well today was certainly an interesting day. I wake up, get ready, and lauren and i go to the falls. Then, we went over to canada for like a half hour, came back home and i wanted to go to the summit mall to these so called flying squirels in the pet store that i heard about from marc. well we get to the mall,and we find the pet store. well these little creatures called "sugar glidders" were the cutest little things. These sleep in these little cotton pouches and the guy took one of them out for lauren to hold. we were like asking him if they bite and hes liek "no they only nibble.." and then a few minutes later the little thing opens his jaw up wide and chomps down on lauren's finger and you hear lauren go "omg this little shit!" it was the funniest thing, i couldnt stop laughing i backed into all the cages and almost knocked them all over it was just too funny. oh and the other funny part, was the lady that worked there. well with me and my perverted mind lol, i asked the lady if these sugar glidders have sex in the pouches and she goes "Oh yea they really get at in...in fact let me show you something" and she goes into this back room and gets a bag filled of pouches and then she goes "I was doing laundry the other day and i noticed a hole in one of the pouches.." and she showed me the pouch with the hole and then she goes "Yea they go at it hard, so hard that the pouch bang up against the cage and puts a hole in the pouch.." and then she started doing these sexual thrust looking movements, that really just...freaked me..out..yeah. lol well anyways, i guess thats all. i seriously bought about 7 cds in the past 2 weeks. today i bought the killers cd, and like 2 days ago i bought sum 41...both are pretty good. but yea thats all. Current Mood: artistic Current Music: "shout" (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
12:25 am	Im talking to bryan right now about his date he had. pretty funny stuff. i will show you some highlights of the conversation.. Zaze09: no she wasn;t that bad looking xo sognator e: what happened at the movies Zaze09: was pritty had an huge chest which i would have never figured Zaze09: anyways......... i pick her up and u ever just meet some1 and know they could possibly be the dumbest person in the world Zaze09: not to be mean but she was like the blondest dumbest chick i have evr met Zaze09: like couldn;t even talk to her like 10000 times worse then jessica simpson Zaze09: anyways we both decided on seein guess who so she was like there is no reason for u to pay for us both i don;t believe in that stuff etc... so i was like fine u can pay for your own i will jsut buyt the popcorn or w/e Zaze09: then i buy my ticket and she buys her but not the same movie.... had no clue she bought 1 for the wrong movie xo sognator e: hahahahhahahaaaaaaaaa Zaze09: had to like go back and exchange it and was badd and everthing got worse from there Zaze09: how do u buy the wrong movie ticket i ask u? Zaze09: how? xo sognator e: i dont know lol Zaze09: wel... Zaze09: and who on the earth likes to sit close to the screen xo sognator e: haha this girl?? Zaze09: i was like walkin to the back and she wanted to sit in like the third row of an empty movie theater Zaze09: we compermised and sat in the middle. Zaze09: i was about to fake a stomach ake to go home early xo sognator e: hahaha Zaze09: i donno, o and this chick was about as skinny as u and was just packin away the popcorn Zaze09: i could not believe how much she ate for how incredibly skinny she was xo sognator e: us skinny girls know how to eat lol Zaze09: i was like damn thats 7 bucks worth of popcorn u mind if i get some Zaze09: lol xo sognator e: hahahhaha Zaze09: and the funniest part was the entire time she was talkin about how she had to got to church the next morning xo sognator e: really hahaha Zaze09: i will give u a hint no 1 cares Zaze09: o and if u carry arounf more than 5 pics of your dog in your purse u r a pshyco Zaze09: she had like a photo album she wipped out when she saw a dog in the movie that looked like hers and had to show me how similar haha wow...always making me laugh. Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
9:34 pm	I try to go on like i never knew you... Well last night was a lot of fun. We went to the Italian Village, where my Uncle John performs for my grandma's birthday. My mom and aunt like invited like 20 people..me and my cousins had like a bet to how much the bill was. I think my cousin Nick won, it was a little over 500 dollars, thats a fucking lot for dinner lol. annnyways, so we had fun, i took pictures of like everyone and my uncle performing and everyone was dancing on the dance floor. There was this one lady who like did this weird thing with her shoulders it was so funny...then my friend samantha called and i went into the bathroom and the lady that did the weird thing with her shoulders came in and was like peeing and she would seriously pee for like 5 seconds, and then stop for 5 seconds, then pee again...and she did this like 10 times lol and then she farted hahhaa, i couldnt like stop laughing lol. Then it was funny this guy we thought, his name was Uncle Bert, but we ended up finding out it was Uncle Bernie, well my cousin nick couldnt like get over the fact he had an uncle named Bert that he's never met...and my uncle goes "Take a good look at him nick, next time you see him he will be stretched out"...meaning he will be dead haha. Then my uncle was talking about something to my uncle john and aunt sue, before my uncle performed, and my cousin nick goes "Deanna what are they talking about.." and Deanna was like "I dont know, sex.." even though he wasnt and nick was like "what?" and then you hear my uncle talking about stuff popping out...haha. oh, and then we had a bet as to when the pope would die...i tell you my family is going to hell.."50 bucks says he dies by midnight.." wow, i dont know what i would seriously do without my family..the holidays are the funniest ever. To even think that the news wanted to come film our thanksgiving that one year, i mean, we would have probably had like MTV call us and ask us to do a reality TV show lol. hahha deanna...*knock*knock* "I know you dont want me here, so i came back, just to make you all miserable." Its so funny, either my uncle is trashed, or my dad. This year my dad was trashed and him and my cousin nick got into like a fight, kidding around though, and my cousin ripped his pants up the croch haha. But yea, so i left the whole party thing early and we drove back, my cousin nick was trashed lol...and deanna was like "lets take danielle to malibu!" so we go to malibu and they were only letting people in with college IDs, which sucked, because i had this fake id, and the highschool id of the girl...and yea they needed a college ID so we couldnt get in which really sucked. so yea...i went home and that was my night. Today, we went to my grandma's house to give her her present, we bought her this dvd player and then we gave her this DVD that my mom and aunt had gotten made by some guy, it had pictures of everyone throughout the years. pretty sad, my grandma started to cry. but yea thats it...i guess i will gooo.. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Incomplete (Comment on this)
Friday, April 1st, 2005
8:37 am	last night was crazzzyy Well last night i walk out to my car, i left the lights on and yea it was dead lol. Luckily, i was giving my friend Mike a ride home and he stayed with me. We waited a half hour for a tow truck to come and help us jump the car or whatever it called..So then me and mike drove to this bar to see if this guy was working...he wasnt working so i took him home. Oh yea, before we went to the bar...we went to Andy's corner store to get our pay checks cashed..and we seen Melissa this other girl i work with, weird lol. anyways so i take him home my mom is like bugging out cause it was getting late..i fucking cant stand my parents. today they woke me up screaming on the top of their lungs. i cant wait to get out of this house, seriously if i didnt live here i dont think i would be the way i am. anyways, tonight were celebrating my grandma's 75th birthday. it should be fun, were going to go watch my uncle john perform and my cousin who just got engaged, who lives in south carolina i believe is coming up to surprise here with his fiancee...its just going to be fun. All the cousin got her a dvd player and then my mom and my aunt worked on this long project of putting a DVD together with pictures of all of us throughout the years, its so sad, i watched it and i cried. but yea i will update later... Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Solitude-Amy Lee (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
2:28 pm	weird ass dreams.. Does anyone ever have dreams where like they are just so weird, yet so perfect? lol well last night i have the weirdest dream ever, but it was so much fun to like have i dont know. My first dream was i was like with Paris Hilton and i dont know if we were friends or what...but we were walking down some like red carpet and it was by water...and all these people were taking pictures of her and i also had my camera, but not to take pictures of her, i always bring my camera everywhere so i just had it. And then like this hellicopter started flying over us, and paris was like "Danielle, I dont want them taking pictures of me...lets go inside!" so she takes my hand and starts running inside this building, and then i fell into the water and i was like "Paris, take my camera, its going to get ruined from the water!" so she takes my camera and helps me out of the water and thats all i remember. Now..my other dream...me and Dee used to be OBSESSED with the Backstreet Boys, i think every girl was either obsessed with nsync or the backstreet boys at some point in their life, and if you say you never were, your a fucking liar lol. Well anyways the backstreet boys have this new song called "Incomplete" and its just really awesome, never thought id ever hear from them or even like their music again but yea its pretty awesome. So anyways, everyone knows Nick Carter...well I had this dream where Dee, Nick and i were like friends and we were planning on all meeting at Taco Bell. So im driving there and i see the Backstreet Boy's tour bus so im like "Okay, Dee and Nick must already be there..." so i walk in there and they are standing in line to order food and im like "I cant believe you guys made me come here, you know i dont eat meat!" and Nick and Dee started laughing at me and i was like to Nick "Well i want a tour of the tour bus.." and hes like "Well Dee already went on it, so she can take you up there while im eating my food here.." and i was like "okay.." so Dee takes me onto the bus and i was like "Where is Aj's bunk bed?" because aj is pretty cute, and he used to be my favorite backstreet boy lol..so she takes me to his little room and i walk in and its like pitch black inside and i walk over to the bed and i couldnt really see anything but i see this little stereo system and i start screaming because i was in his room and yea it was my dream lol. So after i screamed i hear this like little groan and i realized that AJ was under the covers...and i was like "Omg aj, i didnt know you were sleeping im so sorry!" and hes like "No no hunny, its okay!" and he pulls the covers off and he has "GO BUFFALO BILLS" all over his face...and yea this is the weird part of my dream lol. and i was like "Do you like the buffalo bills? im from buffalo!" and hes like "Yea i love them!" and yea thats like all i remember...but it was just such a weird dream...thought id share teeheheehe :o)) anyways, i just got back from going to Canada with Quinn so she could get her ose pierced...i held her hand and told her it wouldnt hurt but it hurt her the most out of all her piercings lol. But yea it looks so cute on her!! Current Mood: calm Current Music: "Incomplete" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
11:58 pm	When they say your not that strong, well your not that weak I guess nothing great has been going on, besides the fact that i know im getting a t-mobile sidekick for sure which im so excited about. I really thought that my contract with verizon was over in april, so then i was like "yay now i can get my sidekick sooon!" but its not over with until june, which sucks major ass...but i get the sidekick in may for my birthday because my parents agreed to pay for it. im happy whoop whoop. Lately, ive been extremely bored out of my mind. Today i hung out with quinn and we went to the falls...we saw our old friend Angelina who died her hair...we talked about how like so many things have changed since we were younger. I miss being young...everyone was so close and there were no stupid conflicts that would get completely out of hand. But in some ways, im happy im not as close as to the people i used to be so close with because i wouldnt have met new people, or my best friends i have now. I wouldnt be the person i am today, i would be so different if i hung out with the people i used to. and im happy im me, because im my own person. I hate how there are little groups in school...the groups of "friends" you see act like they are so close to one another, when all people ever talk about is the little conflicts that go on. I have my people i hang out with, but i have my very few bestfriends...i can seriously say i only have 2 bestfriends. and thats all i need. They make me me. See, the clicks in school, they are all the same. They dress the same, talk the same,and look the same. To tell you the truth, these are the people that others may look up to or whatever, but honestly how can you look up to people who try to be all the same? Who arent happy with themselves that they completely change who they are inside to just be like their friends. My bestfriends each have wonderful qualities that i love, but the thing that makes us different is we dont try to copy those qualities...were just different..were true friends...and im just sick of hearing about these little stupid ass fights that these girls get into. Well im just rambling out about nonsense stuff...anyways. My grandma's 75th birthday is friday..so were all going out to eat and watch my uncle perform. I didnt realize how like talented my whole family is, like everyone in my family can sing really well. I will never forget the time we all went to my uncle johns house and my uncle bobby and dee were singing songs from "Grease" it was just sooo funny. Anyways, but my uncle john is performing so were taking my grandma to go watch him perform...then we got all these pictures together and got this video guy to make a DVD throughout the years. In the background it plays like fran sinatra music, and it just makes me cry watching it. watching like pictures from when my mom and my aunt and uncles were younger, and then like all my family and cousins growing up. I wish we all lived together, i have like cousins all the way across the country, but im just really happy that were still so close even though they are far away. anyways, watching it just made me cry and wished everyone could like just be home for grandma's birthday. I like started to realize how shes getting older, and like my other grandma is so young...but its different with my grandma bea, she seriously helps out our family so many in so many different ways and i think about how much of a mess like i will be, and just everyone when she passes away...i dont even like thinking about it, but shes getting older and i hate it. well i guess thats all...i will post later. Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: "Oh"-Ciara (Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
2:39 pm	Old Habits Die Hard... Well, yeah i wrote some lyrics in another entry, but you have to be listed as a friend to read them..so yea if you want to see just tell me. anyways im here really bored out of my mind, ive had 4 days off for work and i have to go back tomorrow. which by the way im not looking forward to. well yea i guess thats all.. Current Mood: giggly Current Music: Old Habits Die Hard (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
2:13 pm	Happy Easter :o) Happy Easter everyone :o) I hope its a good one for you all. Im going to my aunt's house, it should be a fun time ((seeing when our two families put together is like an episode of the Osbournes..)) and dee is home, so yea its all good. I bought a pair on sunglasses that are huugee and i love them. My mom thinks they are stupid and that all celebrities and people wearing them look like grass hoppers, but they are cute, my daddio likes em so fuck the mother lol. anyways- i will post more later to tell you how the day went.. Current Mood: artistic Current Music: backstreet's new stuff (( gotta love the pop music ha)) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
10:35 pm	all done, sort of Well i can really say that my vacation has been complete- it is filled with the unforgettable memory of Lauren's shoe getting stuck in the snow and Bryan pushing her over so her foot goes into the wet, slushy snow. Well yeah, its Lauren she was pretty pissed off, but it was just too funny and me being a best friend i should have helped her out, but i had to laugh. I guess it was my fault since im like the "Artsy photographer type of person" aka a loser, according to lauren, and i had to take pictures near the old factories and of tupac painted on the wall. But still, it was such an interesting day. im in the process of getting those pictures developed. Now as im sitting here laughing all alone, i should have taken a picture of Lauren's face when she fell into the snow...it was just too funny. I guess my photography adventures will have to be put to a stop though, since i made Quinn and Lauren come to the falls with me to take pictures and we almost got killed by an old perverted mad with most likely, saggy balls. "Is there a beauty contest around here ladies, you girls are beautiful.."..."NO BUT IS THERE A FARM AROUND HERE BECAUSE I THINK ONE OF ITS PIGS ESCAPED FROM IT'S PEN!" haha girls, it was funny while it lasted until the old man started to run after us. "Lauren get the fucking keys out!" haha so yeah, that was the end of our adventure. I must say that im happy im out of school right now, but in some ways i miss it. My art teacher asked me and Christina and 2 other girls to do the art work and scenery for the play Les Miserables. i actually have fun doing it, and this big poster for the play that we worked on will be hanging outside of the school, so check it out..oh and also go to the play, it will be awesome. haha christina "I will sit and be like omg, i painted those bricks!" haha. i love my friends, they seriously are the only things that make me smile. the adventures and the things we get ourselves into, are just unforgettable, even though most of them we should forget because they involve us getting into some type of trouble..but yeah. well, im leaving...i will post later. Current Mood: silly Current Music: "Clumsy"-lady of peace (old school haha) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
11:07 pm	just a test... (Comment on this)